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Back to "normal" / 01.28.10, 06:53 PM
Bloooogg
I’ve never written a blog entry in 2010 before! (You can’t say you didn’t see that intro coming)
Well, the first week of the second trimester is nearly passed. It’s late Saturday night and I arrived back in Philly on Sunday. It was very surreal. I was kinda cranky from the 13 hours car ride, but no time was wasted falling back in the M.Y. routine. Monday was hard. I have lots of guilty/disappointed feelings from break not just for chilling at the bottom of the pool (see entry from 12/24/09), but also for all the people I didn’t see and things I didn’t do. Honestly, I think I’d been idolizing this break since about mid –November, thinking that it was going to fix me or revitalize me and turn me back into super G. It didn’t happen like that. I ran around like a maniac and ended up getting strep throat, which still hasn’t gone away completely. I feel sick even now. Tuesday I dragged my regrets before my prayer group at Esperanza. One of the doctors (she’s actually a CRNP which makes her a few points cooler in my book) describes me as the “real vulnerable type” (then she asked me if I ever get hurt. I lied and said rarely) and I guess she’s right because I was really honest to my prayer group about how ridiculously unhappy I’d been. Andrea, my nursing supervisor ended up being the one to pray for me, but she didn’t stop with just prayer….. Around 10:30 I came into her office in search of ibuprofen for my head. She started talking to me about how I have a purpose at EHC. She said a lot of really good things to me. Things I needed to hear, badly. It all pretty much boiled down to put everything you have into this year, especially your work at Esperanza because it is going to pay off. She was talking about mostly nursing/career type stuff, but the principle stands true spiritually as well. It was the very thing I needed to hear. My week was changed from that point on. Wednesday was fun. Thursday’s citywide was incredibly life giving. My Sabbath was more or less perfect (lots of sleep, Indian food and good conversation with a friend from the clinic). Today I went to a Three Kings Day party with EHC. I thought it would be more cultural, but that’s okay it was a great time. We were able to eat and talk and worship a lil too (I love Jesus songs in Spanish!).
It’s been really hard being sick. It’s pretty much the only thing bugging me right now. Emotionally, it’s difficult because my need for affection seems to triple while my ability to seek people out divides in half. The Betty has been really good to me though. I think we missed each other over break. We’ve had fun together this week. Tension had been building before break and now it’s like we’re all breathing a little easier.
Next entry I’ll begin me series introducing the members of the Betty, starting with the Northwest’s finest, Megan Jackson.
Good bye for now,
G
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I’m still waiting for your blog about me…. ha. I just like your blogs in general.
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