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New Moon / 11.10.09, 10:03 AM
Hey Everyone!
I don’t even know what to write about, I feel like I have so much I want to say and there is so much that has been on my mind lately, it’ll be impossible to explain it all.
I finally started at Druid Hills Elementary School, where I meet with two girls Reagan, and Janeskha for about a half hour to tutor them, and just talk to them about their lives. Then after that I work at the after school program which is both tiring and rewarding. There are so many little kids with a million different personalities it can get kinda crazy. I think my favorite part so far has been working with this little boy, devine, I believe he is in first grade, and he can’t read hardly at all. So I have been trying to work with him, and I really love it. It’s a challenge, and I want to see him succeed. But sometimes I feel like I get frustrated because I know he is capable, he just doesn’t always try, and he’ll give up. But I am trying my best to be patient and to stick with it, because I know he probably doesn’t usually have someone who will take the time to listen to him read, and to actually correct him and make him try harder so he wont get left behind. He is just so cute and little and I love watching him try to sound it out. I really think that teaching is where God wants me! I just love little kids and helping them understand new things! It’s hard though, because some of the kids are sooooo difficult and all of us at the after school program can lose our patience and kinda yell at them, and I HATE that. I hate when I have to be mean (even to the kids that seem to deserve it ha) because for most of the kids that go to this school especially, their home life is probably not that great and when they are here I want them to be able to enjoy their little lives! I want this to be a fun place for them, where they feel loved and I know alot of time I lose my patience and I don’t want to be like that with them.
Something that’s been really hard lately is just that I have been realizing all the ugly things about me and how I don’t even come close to measuring up to the life that Jesus lived. AH! It stinks, but all I can do is pray and try harder to follow Jesus’ example. And, just talking with my team about all the different things that go on in people’s lives, broken homes, being homeless, poor education… there are just so many problems in this world it is overwhelming and sometimes I feel like I am not making a difference at all.
I think I just need to humble myself, and be reminded that I am God’s servant and I need to do whatever He calls me to whether I see the difference I am making or not.
I miss my mom alot today. :(
BUT, despite the fact that most of this blog isn’t very uplifting things are going really great. I am seeing why God wants me here! And that’s a huge blessing for me, and sometimes I find myself wondering if I will even want to come back home when it is over. Crazy!
Samantha and I started our community group, with college girls from our church. It’s been so fun! All the girls are really great, and I truly think we will all be really good friends by the time this year comes to a close. They are a blessing from God.
New Moon on the 20th!
Free Bobcat tickets!
Oh yeah, this past weekend we had a festival in our neighborhood and we got to keep the cotton candy machine at our home the ENTIRE weekend! There was cotton candy all over our house, it was the best weekend of my life!
That’s all for now, I am about to fall asleep. Goodnight everyone!!
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