Jordan Miller
About Mission Year
Mission Year is a year long urban ministry program focused on Christian service and discipleship. We take teams of young people, place them in an area of need, and help them to serve people and create community. We are committed to the command of Jesus to “love God and love people,” by placing the needs of our neighbors first and developing committed disciples of Christ with a heart for the poor. Learn more about our first year program…
Jordan Miller's Blog
Racial Reconciliation / Oct 1, 03:28 PM
When a samaritan woman approaches a well Jesus was at, Jesus asked her for a drink. Jews didn’t talk to samaritans. So the woman was surprised because not only did Jesus talk to her. He asked her for a drink. He immediately reconciled the differences between the two. It resulted in changing her life. The other day we were walking to the laundromat and a man named James asked us for $1.50 to buy a sandwich. We told him he could walk with us to the laundromat and then we would go buy him a sandwich. He helped carry some of our laundry. James ended up hangin’ out with us all day. We all became friends. Well some of the people I was with were splitting up and three of them went home. James helped carry some of the laundry back with them. I stayed behind and finished some more laundry with two others. Then a man told us he needed 8 bucks to catch a train. We are only given 60 bucks a month for each individual living in our house and we are not allowed to give out money but we can specifically buy things for people. Well the train station was really far away and we couldn’t walk to it to buy him a ticket.
We had to let him down but we told him wed pray for him. It seemed like to him that we didn’t trust him. I felt really bad. Well we went back home and the James was just leaving. After my other two teammates went inside I decided to ask James for some advice. I talked to him and told him why we were in this city. And I told him about how it seems like Jesus helped every person in need that he came across. I asked James how he thought I could have helped the man wanting the train ticket. He gave me his advice which was something like I cant help everybody. And then he said he was so glad that he met us that day. He said he was going to check himself into detox that night. He asked me to pray for him. Then I asked him to pray for me too. He started to cry when I asked him to pray for me. He told me this whole story about all this bad stuff that happened in his life. He said “ Ya know when King Herod killed all the baby boys to try and kill Jesus. It was a bad day. But it was scripture being fulfilled. Ive had a lot of bad days. But because I met you guys today, scripture has been fulfilled.” Then he told me to pray for him as soon as I started to walk back toward my house. He was walking the other way and I said alright but make sure you pray for me while your walking the other way. And he said he would.
I didnt think I was above James because he didnt have money or that he was homeless. I tried my best to approach the situation with an empty cup and learn from the man and show him that we are equal and I asked him for advice and then asked him to pray for me. O and he also helped carry our laundry. I learned a lot from James. But more importantly I learned a lot from God. Because of God we are all equal. Next time you are helping someone make sure you are not putting yourself above them. Jesus became the very nature of a servant. He didn’t act like a servant. He didn’t look like a servant. He became a servant.
I cant explain to you the feeling of someone saying to me that scripture was fulfilled because he met us. But I prayed for James out loud with a huge smile on my face when I started to walk the other way. And then I started praising God. He is so awesome. To know that I could be doing things like this all year just because God wants to use my life is unbelievable. He is so amazing. The way he works is beyond our knowledge and understanding. I want to ask everyone that reads this to pray for James right now. And then to praise God because he is at work. He is at work in Camden and he is at work wherever you are. And if there are aliens somewhere out there in the universe, he is at work in them too. Give thanks to our amazing Father in Heaven.
So Far / Jul 8, 01:51 PM
So I moved to Branson a little over a week ago. I’m not getting my mail from home yet because I’m having trouble getting in contact with people to change my address. I had to get a job as soon as I got here to keep up with my car payments. I need to sell my car before Mission Year starts. I still have a $300 hospital bill I need to pay. I owe the greatest friend Ive ever had in my life money and I left town and he probably thinks Ive turned my back on him. I don’t have a computer of my own to keep updated with my Mission Year things I have to get together and I have yet to type up my letter to mail to people. And every time I am about to type it up I remember that my response envelopes were sent to my old address and I end up not typing my letter because I wont be able to mail any yet. I also work almost 60 hours a week with my new job so I can get out of debt before I go. I cant seem to ever get a hold of the proper Mission Year contacts that I need to by phone because I can only go to my sisters to use the computer every so often and I miss emails and times that I should be waiting for a call. I feel like I’m behind. I feel like I could be doing so much more to prepare for Mission Year. I have a family member that is constantly stressed out from debt and I want to help but I have places I owe money too. I have no clue what I should be doing with the income I am making but I’m not making enough to cover all of it even if I hardly spend any on myself. I also feel so confused as to how I should spend my time that I really don’t know what to do.
I don’t feel like I deserve any of this. I dint feel like I deserve to do Mission Year. I feel like there are people more organized. There are people with less baggage. There are people that are smarter. There are people that are nicer. There are people that God could use so much better than me. There are people that people would like more than me. I don’t feel like there is anyone backing me up. Because why should anyone. I haven’t done anything with my life. Ive had these feelings for a while now. But about a month ago I was cleaning my room. I found a dvd that I got with a special edition Casting Crowns cd. Ive had it for a long time and never watched it. I decided to pop it in this day. I stumbled upon the lead singer Mark Hall’s testimony. God used that dvd to change my life that day.In it Mark Hall talks about how he isn’t good enough either. Mark Hall made me realize that God doesn’t need me. God doesn’t need any of us. God is so much bigger than us. He doesn’t need me. But he wants me. Its on these days that I have these worries. The days I have these fears when I feel like Mission Year is gonna call me and say “ Hey Jordan, We noticed you’ve been signed up for a month now and you haven’t even typed up a rough draft letter. You haven’t even attempted to raise any support yet so we have to let ya go.” Its on these days I have to watch that dvd again like I just did before writing this paragraph. So I can realize God is saying to me. “Jordan, Do you think your debt, your worries, your lack of motivation are worrying me. Do you think your fears are weighing me down. Do you think you not having a computer is going to hurt my Kingdom. Do you think not having a cell phone is going to make my plans for this world fail. Jordan, you told ME to control your life. If your scared then you must think I’m not doing my job. I am going to use you in this world. You show the world what I can do through someone who gave ME control.” I have these days so often. I have to watch that dvd every time because it seems like the next day Ill forget what God told me through Mark Hall. And then I feel again like I don’t deserve to do any of this and Ill lose motivation to get things done. But for now I know he’s in control. And I ask that whoever reads this prays for me that I’ll know this more often. That my faith will prevail when things don’t seem like they are going good. I kinda sat here for a minute because I didn’t know how to end this message. But I looked down and saw the shirt I’m wearing and I will end with what it says.
Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying.
“Whom shall I send? And who shall go for us?”
And I said, “Here am I. Send me!”
Isaiah 6:8
If not me….
If not now….
Who?
When?
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