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Laugh. / 11.25.09, 11:03 AM
I laugh at myself a lot.
I mean this as a general statement- I do clumsy or goofy or dumb things, and I laugh at myself.
I do things I never thought I would, and I laugh at myself.
For instance… I work with kids. I’m not really a “kid” person, so this is a bit of a stretch. The street I live on has “Normal” in its name. This seems to amuse everyone I know. I moved to inner-city Chicago to work at a farm.
None of this seems that weird to me until I consider what my expectations were at the beginning. I expected to maybe work at something along the lines of a shelter… but I somehow ended up doing research for a farm (their current homepage is a blog I wrote, by the way… www.growinghomeinc.org) and tutoring and teaching art at an after school program. This is a far cry from anything I imagined.
The one thing I absolutely did NOT want was an all-girl team. And I ended up with 5 other girls. I love them all now, but I was terrified of them 3 months ago (this is especially amusing if you actually know my teammates).
So as I start to consider options for my life post-Mission Year, it stands to reason that I expect all of my expectations to be defied. I realized recently that I literally could do anything. I’m not particularly tied to any places or people, so I’m free to wander. I feel like I’ve thought of every possibility, but new stuff keeps coming up.
It occurred to me recently (like… within the last year) that I don’t have to do the same thing everyone else does. That was life-changing. So while I’m considering all these options, it occurs to me… not only do we not HAVE to follow the set path, sometimes we’re not SUPPOSED to follow the set path (This may not be as earth-shattering to you as it was to me). No person doing Mission Year right now is following the set path. In fact, Jesus calls us to be counterintuitive (“turn the other cheek,” anyone?). This leads me to no real conclusion- I’m still befuddled about the the future.
Wherever I end up, whatever I end up doing, I will inevitably be laughing at myself.
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Yes, yes, yes! This is such a freeing thing, isn’t it? What a great place to be. Free to grow and move. It can be freaky looking at all the options, but it’s also freeing to remember that God will use you wherever you end up and that you will never stop growing or changing if you continue seeking Him. Yay! What an exciting blog. Keep seeking and exploring!
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