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beauty in the breakdown / 03.30.09, 12:15 PM
Several weeks ago I sat on a brick ledge, for hours, listening to a dear friend of mine share her heart. The second she started speaking, I could hear God. Her heart was so fragile, so broken, and the hurting soul inside of her began to uncover its beauty right before me. I was in awe and tears flowed endlessly from my eyes as I soaked in the beauty surrounding me.
She had just closed her eyes the day before and thought about what beauty meant to her; what it looked like. She pictured a tree that she had seen earlier in the week, she felt a light breeze, the sun was shining down on her, and she was sharing her heart with someone. The very next day, as we sat there talking, she saw that God had opened her eyes to what she had pictured beauty to be. There was a similar tree directly to her left, the sun was shining down on us, there was a light breeze, and we were sharing our hearts with one another. The noises around us were so faint, so distant, because all we could hear was God. All we could see was God and the beauty that He displays. I can hardly begin to really explain how incredible it was to see God in such a way; to experience someone’s depiction of beauty, to look around and actually see God’s beauty in full description…sigh.
The beauty I saw that day was in her vulnerability and honesty. The beauty was in her breakdown. We are constantly running and hiding from the truth and we inevitably end up on our face before God. Though thankfully enough, He gladly meets us there. He meets us in our broken state when we have nothing else to give; He picks us up, and cares for us. He reveals His beauty, as well as ours, and once again shows us how much He loves us. His beauty is always there, and in the simplest things; the trees, the sun, our tears. We seemingly search for the greatest ways to find these forms of beauty and love, but it’s in the small moments in our lives that we often find them. When we finally take the time to work through our pain He is there, healing us with His divine beauty.
Love.Love.Love.
Kristin
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Such a deep, beautiful, and thoughtful heart. One very much worth loving I’d say! (hint) :) I know I sure do, and God….well I’m sure He’s bursting!!
By mommy / Mar 31, 04:26 PM / #
Wow! This is so beautiful. Thanks for sharing your heart. Looking forward to seeing you on Friday. Love You!
By Dad / Mar 31, 06:16 PM / #
What a wonderful child of God you are! I am so proud of your journey. hugs from ‘home’
By Kim Dunn / Apr 26, 10:13 PM / #