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Psalm 42 - part 1 / 05.22.08, 05:23 PM
hello dear ones. how are you? doing ok? Good. I hope so. There is so much going on in my brain right now, its hard to function properly some days. But! There is deliverance from all that, and His name is Jesus. Let me tell you a little about what I mean.
I was reading Psalm 42 last night. I’ve been really stretched and challenged in the things that I trust God with. I can trust Him with whether or not I am going to eat tomorrow (because I know that I will), but not that someone will have a place to sleep. I can trust that God will find me a job (or some sort of support), but not that someone can be delivered from their addictions. I can “trust” God because I know that if He doesn’t come through, I always have a back up plan. That’s not trust. Its hard for me to trust that He will care for someone else because I don’t know their plan. Or even if they have one at all. That’s not trust. I am pretty self sufficient. I can take care of myself. I do what I gotta do sometimes, but I haven’t wanted for much in my (short) adult life.
Psalm 42
1 As the deer pants for streams of water,
so my soul pants for you, O God.
2 My soul thirsts for God, for the living God.
When can I go and meet with God?
3 My tears have been my food
day and night,
while men say to me all day long,
“Where is your God?”
I wonder where I can go and meet the God that I hear so much about. Is it me? Or is it God? I think its me. I believe that He is there, waiting for me to “look” up at him, but I just keep getting distracted…. I love verse 3 – my tears have been my food day and night – because they have been in the last month. Situations come up that just scream to me, where is your God? Where is He when D tells me that she left her significant other because he beat her. Its hard to see Jesus in that situation. Until I remember that He provided Breakthrough as a place for her to go, where she knows people care about her. Its easy to miss Jesus in the craziness of what is (unfortunately) everyday life for some people. But I am starting to realize that because we have certain expectations that we are sooo busy looking to see met, we just plain out miss the stuff that He is doing. I need to start doing a better job of seeking Him in my grief and heartache as well as other people’s instead of just assuming that because things are not working out as I want them, that He is not working at all. Cause thats messed up.
I’m going to try and write more thoughts about the rest of Psalm 42 in the next week or so, so look out for part 2. :)
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I agree, Sarah. I, too, have difficulty trusting God when it actually matters. :(
By Jessica / May 23, 12:46 AM / #
Sarah! That’s crazy! Our team had a hard week last week especially concerning violence in the area and this is the chapter that God gave to comfort me! It means so much – I shared it with my team last Saturday and then wrote about it some in my newsletter. God’s word is so awesome, isn’t it?
By Joanna / May 24, 11:06 AM / #
good words Sarah. working where we do makes life hard sometimes. doesn’t always seem like things make sense. Jesus is the only thing that gets me through and makes me see the greater things. Let me know if you ever want to talk . My place is open if you ever just want to get away…for any of you=)
By Val / Jun 2, 04:39 PM / #