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Psalm 42 - part 2 / 06.04.08, 11:42 AM
Here is part 2 of my thoughts on Psalm 42.
4 These things I remember
as I pour out my soul:
how I used to go with the multitude,
leading the procession to the house of God,
with shouts of joy and thanksgiving
among the festive throng.
These things I do remember, going to every “Jesus thing” available in college, bible studies, conference, trainings, etc just to receive more of Him… I was a leader in college for many young people, as well as with my peers. And now, I feel like I can’t lead myself to Jesus, let alone anyone else. I am missing the festive throng, or I just can’t see it. I saw Prince Caspian yesterday and it was pretty excellent… there are a lot of great interactions and one-liners about the Christian faith. Peter and Lucy are having issues at one time about Lucy being able to see Aslan (Peter cannot and doesn’t believe Lucy)… Lucy says “Peter, maybe you are just not looking for him.” (not a direct quote, but ya get it). Maybe that’s my issue, I’m too busy relying on myself to actually see God when He is right in front of me… dang.
5 Why are you downcast, O my soul?
Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,
for I will yet praise him,
my Savior and 6 my God.
My soul is downcast within me;
therefore I will remember you
from the land of the Jordan,
the heights of Hermon—from Mount Mizar.
Why am I downcast? What’s my problem? I have not yet put my complete hope in God, that’s my problem. Still trying to be self-sufficient and stuff. I was talking to a friend the other day about ways that we can hold each other accountable and things we need help in. I found so many ways that I can help, but was at a loss for the ways that I needed to be helped. Part of it is pride. I don’t want to admit that I need help, or that I want it from anyone. I’ve always been able to kind of take care of things on my own, and I turned out ok so I think thats been good enough.
I’m such a hypocrite. If someone had said something like I just said to me, I would find a million ways why they were not ok (why just being OK is not ok), why they need to trust Jesus more, and trust others more, etc. I’ve actually had this conversation recently and now I need to go apologize for my ridiculousness.
God help me.
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too bad they cut out some of that part where Aslan confronts Lucy about trusting her convictions, but i guess they had to make it appealing to the masses…
By patrick / Jun 4, 01:41 PM / #
Sarah, I love the way you talk about the Scriptures. You just lay it right on out there with love and truth and real life. Maybe you should be a preacher.
By Jessica / Jun 4, 10:47 PM / #
Thank you, Sarah, for writing this. Your words were my already in my heart, I just couldn’t articulate them, so thank you for your honesty and know that you are Def. not the only one struggling with the same issues. I actually just recently read this off a friend’s page on facebook and loved it. Hope you do too: The most difficult aspect of life is never being able to reach a certain set standard. It is a struggle to comprehend this lack of attainment, but even more frustrating realizing that the point you are trying to attain is one set by one’s self. Trying to reach a standard set by God and not even reaching one set by self is exasperating. I guess the most emotionally cathartic time in my life is when i realized that trying to meet a self-standard is not being Christ-like. It is emotionally freeing to realize that one can not reach a certain point of attainment, but can only rest in the arms of Jesus Christ. To try to do something for your god is no different than any other religion, but to let him do something in you is Christianity. (THE ONE TRUE FAITH)
By Tera, 08-09 / Jun 5, 11:36 AM / #
Hey Sarah, thanks for posting that. I just read it and when you said, “(why just being OK is not ok), why they need to trust Jesus more, and trust others more, etc.”…that portion really spoke to me. I’m definitely in a time in my life where I’m trying to handle everything on my own and have sort of settled for just being okay. I know i’m not relying on God fully…so yeah, thanks for that. =0)
By Tiffany / Jun 6, 12:38 PM / #
Oh sweet Sarah, how Jesus loves it when we realize how much we need him— even just our intention/ desire to be nearer to him makes him smile. He loves you SSOOOO much, little girl!
By Suzanne / Jun 11, 10:15 AM / #